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"Yeah. Let's go somewhere more private." He replied while walking past everyone and into the only bedroom that was in the basement near us. I quietly followed behind him. People were giving us skeptical looks left and right. I tried to ignore it by looking at the ground. I walked in the room and noticed Jordan was already sitting on the bed. I went over and sat by him. Looking at him, I realized the truth. No matter what, I really loved Jordan. I finally decided to say something. "What's going on between us Jordan?" "I really don't know." We sat there again in silence, neither of us knowing what to say. Suddenly he spoke up. "Honestly Rae, I think you need to go back to Florida and we should see other people. This, just isn't working and I can't deal with it or you anymore." I looked away from him. I couldn't believe he just said that. I mean, I wasn't expecting everything to go right back to the way it was but, I thought eventually we would get back together. I sat there holding back the tears that tried to force their way out. I wasn't going to let him see me cry. I got up without saying anything and walked away. "Rae.." Jordan said right before I left the room. I ignored him and kept walking. I ran past everyone and went upstairs ignoring the people calling my name behind me. I slipped on my shoes, got in my car and went straight to Eleigh's to get my things. I messily packed everything up and got back in my car. The next thing I know I was at the airport booking the next flight for Florida. I didn't care that I was leaving Sean there, I'm sure him and Jordan will get on just fine without me. About an hour later a lady came over the loud speaker announcing it was time to board the flight. The lady checking my ticket gave me a smile that I couldn't return. I silently went to my seat and sat down. Resting my head on the back of the chair, I finally let the tears fall. Throughout the plane ride I continuously ignored the phone calls I was getting. Not even checking who was calling, I would click ignore. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I just needed to be on my own. It was very late when I arrived home considering I boarded the plane around 12:00 o clock. I was lucky there was a flight still going out at that time. I walked in to my empty house and right up to my room. I crawled into bed and for the first time in years cried myself to sleep. The next morning I woke up, turned on the TV, and just stayed in bed. The constant vibrating of my phone was getting on my nerves so I just turned the damn thing off. Even though I was watching TV I wasn't paying attention to what was going on. Nothing seemed to matter to me. Hunger, thirst, and things like going to the bathroom never seemed to phase me. Next thing I know it was dark outside again and I drifted off to a tired less sleep. The next few days went on like that. Suddenly the hunger overtook me and I went downstairs to get something to eat. I grabbed some cereal and went back upstairs. I decided I should at least check my phone and let everyone know I'm still living. I turned on my phone and realized I had like a million calls, texts, and/or voice mails. All consisting of people including; Eleigh, Sidney, Sean, Max, My Dad, and last but not least.....Jordan. I stopped and stared at his name for a second. I couldn't believe he had the nerve to try and talk to me. I went back to Eleigh's name and texted her back. 'I'm fine, don't worry about me.' I went through all the other texts and calls and deleted them. Eleigh was the only one I felt necessary to talk to considering she would probably tell everyone else I'm okay. She quickly replied, just like I was expecting.
'Oh my God, don't ever scare us like that again. What the fuck were you thinking? Where are you?'
I replied back; 'Sorry, don't worry about me or where I am. I'm okay.'
I didn't want her knowing I was back at home because knowing her she would come down here and see me. Which seeing people was the last thing I wanted right now. My phone vibrated again, I was expecting it to be from Eleigh so I quickly opened it. I was wrong.
'Rae, Seriously where are you? -Jordan'
I just didn't understand what the hell he wanted from me and why he kept trying to get ahold of me. You think by now he would get it that I didn't want to talk to him or see him.
'You honestly think of all people I would tell you where I am right now?'
My phone vibrated as Jordan replied.
'Even though we aren't together anymore I still care about you Rae.'
I read the text over and over again while tears began to cloud my vision. As I shut my phone I put my head down and yet again fell asleep. The only way I could forget everything.